unhinged censer of the heart

“You must run after the Prayer (the “Prayer” is the Jesus Prayer).  To have the Prayer you must continually pray inside.  Run after the Prayer, do not be talking rather only be praying.”

blessed Geronitssa Makrina

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“When saying the Jesus Prayer keep your mind empty; with the Jesus Prayer your mind will be clean and full of light.  You will see your every fault.  With the Jesus Prayer you will always say it is my fault NOT someone else’s fault.”

blessed Gerontissa Makrina

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That censer of ours, it is probably twenty some years old. It has a well worn oft used sweet smelling incense patina on the inside and a “let my prayer arise as incense” luster on the outside. Recently – in the past year – it has become unhinged. Not pictured is the candle wax dripped scribbled names in the margin and some crayon markings from the kids Jordanville prayer book which also has pages falling out. So many times I have come so close to purchasing a shiny new brass or nickel censer and crisped white no writing on the pages brand new unbroken spine prayer book but then I always put them down.

Unlike the pages falling out of the prayer book, no page of prayer falls out of the book of God’s heart. The censer : a visual reminder that prayer is oft born of the unhinged censer of a broken and contrite heart… it is such a prayer that arises as incense, a prayer that God knows before even it is spoken and one that God will not despise.



Lenten panang curry sweet potato soup

Lenten sweet potato curry soup

If we want Jesus to dwell in our heart, let us love and humble ourselves like Christ.

Elder Ephraim : Counsels from the Holy Mountain

This Panang Curry soup was borne out of no idea of what to make for dinner, and of a well stocked pantry. It’s very simple and just a handful of ingredients. Most people think because of my background in nutrition that I have always got a meal plan for the coming week. That’s not always the case (would that it were!). Often I am overcome by events – especially with homeschooling and just life in general with teenagers. What can I say.

But one thing I do well is clean out the temptations of a non- Lenten pantry and fill in its place lots of Lenten staples. This allows us to throw a Lenten dinner together in a pinch and that’s usually where I have found myself these last few years – in a pinch to throw dinner together.

Last nights soup was so delicious – I had to share. And all with just five ingredients.

Lenten Panang Curry Coconut Sweet Potato Soup

Ingredients

  • 3 sweet potatoes
  • 2 cans coconut milk
  • Panang curry paste – like maessri panang curry paste (it’s worth ordering online if you do not have a Thai market near you
  • salt
  • water to achieve desired consistency

Preparation

  • Wrap sweet potatoes in foil and place in a preheated 350F oven. Bake until tender. About 1 hour
  • remove sweet potatoes from foil, cut in half and scoop out sweet potato meat
  • place in a sauce pan and add all but two tablespoons of coconut milk
  • using an electric beater or electric blending wand blend sweet potato and coconut milk.
  • Add 1-2 tablespoons of curry paste. Blend again. You are looking for a silky smooth consistency.
  • add 1 /2 cup water or enough to achieve desired thickness
  • Simmerer until hot. Add salt to taste. Drizzle with remaining coconut milk and serve.

Wishing you every blessing this Lent!

A few notes about curry paste: the supermarket has many brands like A Taste of Thai and others. These fine curry pastes but they lack the intensity and depth of flavor of curry pastes that you will find in an Asian market. I find when I use supermarket brands I need to add A LOT more paste to get the flavor.

A few thoughts about preparing fasting foods: Especially with Lenten food, my kids always tell me they want to eat foods that are meant to be Lenten, rather than fake hamburgers and fake hot dogs… not that we don’t eat those occasionally, its just that they leave us craving real hamburgers and real hot dogs… so I try to make our food taste flavorful and good. Quality spices make a big difference. What I have found in visiting monasteries is their Lenten cuisine is very delicious and so it’s alright to make our foods at home delicious too. Its our offering to our families, nourishing them and blessing them with a good meal.


our first gift from God

Our first gift from God is our hearts.  He gives it to us free.  It is a piece of earth with stones.  You must dig each day and plow each day taking away the stones to make the earth of your heart ready to yield a crop 1000-fold.  It takes hard work every day to work the earth of your heart to give a crop of sweet grapes.  Geronta (Geronta is the Greek for Elder) and Gerontissa are the machines to break up the big boulders in your heart but to remove stones can only be done by you.  It takes a lot of hard work and labor to produce sweet grapes in the end from the rocky soil of your heart.

the blessed Gerontissa Makrina


keep your mouth like the Church

Holy Gospel and Hyacinths

“Keep your mouth as a Church.  Keep your mouth pure with only prayer in your mouth and on your tongue.

Inside a church you find only glorification of God.

It should be the same with your mouth, keep your mouth like a pure and clean virgin as a church to only be used for the glory of God and to glorify God.

Keep your mouth like this with the Jesus Prayer.”

blessed Gerontissa Makrina


God wants us to be humble

handmaidens of the Lord

God wants us to be humble and meek because there is a devil, who never sleeps waiting to swallow us. Stay humble with the sweet name of Jesus, Jesus’ name will soften your heart.  All the day long you will want to say only Jesus’ name. If your mouth is filled with Jesus’ name you will not be able to hurt anyone with your words.  All things that you do will be soft.  If you touch another sister it will be as soft as a sponge.  The name of Jesus will soften you to the point of tears in all things.



blessed Gerontissa Makrina


endure endure endure

Have much, much, much patience. Have endless patience. Over and over again, have this great patience; have patience, patience, patience. Endure, endure, endure. Endure EVERYTHING. Endure everything with much patience, with a heart full of peace and a closed mouth. Endure with patience and patience will rest in your heart.

blessed Gerontissa Makrina